Let's Conversate! (Genesiz C.)

Can feelings be as transparent as glass?

Hello, Lovelies! Let's have a conversation.

Not going to lie to you, I often don't know what to talk about. This is one of those times.

So, this conversation may be a little different than what you are used to.

Conversing is hard for me, always has been, but writing is an artistic outlet for me.

Even when I don't really know how to formulate my words or gather my thoughts.

That is one thing that I've noticed about my Autism.

I often see things through Rainbow-colored lenses...I know, I know the saying is "Rose-colored glasses," but I don't see things in one color or dimension as most people do. It's more of an array; my brain is wired differently, so the way I see things, think about, or even understand things is different.

I often look at things this way because my disabilities have given me the ability to think of things or put me in situations and experiences that abled-bodied people may not have had to go through.

I also tend to feel things more deeply than most. Surprisingly, people think that autistic and neurodivergent people don't have empathy, or only feel one emotion or none at all!

Can you believe that?!

Once I understand the situation, I truly try to understand why someone may feel the way that theydo.

Then it's like I take on that feeling on top of my own. It can get pretty intense. If I can, I try to talk it out so that everyone understands the situation. I know it sounds a bit strange, but that's how I process it, and I hate to see people upset.

I am a BIG crier, I guess it's because of how sensitive I am, but if someone cries around me, I cry too.

But it's still a bit of a learning curve for me, and I have gotten into some pretty heated situations due to misunderstandings and not feeling heard!

Because we (Autistics) take things literally (most of the time), we often come across as cynical, rude, or unfeeling, but this isn't the case!

I have had a lot going on in life, and at this moment, things have seemed to intensify.

My Autism isn't usually addressed or even thought of, so a lot of people don't even stop to think about how I view things, or why I am feeling how I am feeling.

With all my disabilities and the ignorance that comes along from outsiders and family members alike, it seems to get pretty depressing and overwhelming at times. So, I guess this convo is a bit about feelings, isn't it?

As a person with multiple disabilities and Autism, I hate to say it, but my feelings are often disregarded, or I am constantly being gaslit about them. As a disabled person, ableism and ignorance are your worst enemies.

I'm often met with indifference about my pain or my depression or anything else remotely, but then I'm met with inspiration when I do basic living activities. Someone please make it make sense. All of us in the disabled community would like an explanation and access! Accessibility is our human right, in every situation!!

So, with all of that being said, I will leave this open for further discussion. It was just a thought to start a conversation, not knowing what I wanted to talk about.

So let's talk!

_Stay Lovely_